Ignoring the Voice

I need this reminder right now. I’m in that place where I don’t know what to do or what to write or even how to. For me, it’s a lot of things right now.

• I started a new job at a new district, which means a new curriculum. That means more work.

• I’m battling post-Covid… anxiety? Depression? Blahs? I guess that’s what it is, but really I just want to be by myself A LOT. And not do anything.

• I don’t have the time.

• I am tired. Physically, emotionally, mentally.

So if you are also in a place where you need to hear this, here it is. Ignore that voice!

I’m not happy with my WIP, which has become a WNIP (Work Not In Progress) because I was spending so much time getting myself together for school. Now that I’m feeling my way through it, going back to that WNIP seems daunting. I need to immerse myself in it. But how do I immerse myself with a few hours a week (if I’m lucky) and a couple more on the weekend?

I don’t have an answer for that yet, and I’m going to embrace that.

Instead, I’m going to breathe. I’m going to take a break (a longer one) from my WNIP and instead go back to where I started with writing. Short stories.

Oh and I’m not doing NaNo. I don’t have the backbone for it this year. I’m swimming along–no longer drowning–at work, but I’m not far from losing my grip and flailing. So no extra pressure.

I’m also reminding myself to be kind to myself. And I will not compare myself to others. I will not.

I hope you’re happily writing and enjoying your time with friends and family. Please be kind to yourselves.